Yesterday a friend stopped talking to me after having a bit of a breakdown. A different friend started talking to me again after ignoring me for 4 days, 2 days before. A week or 2 ago I made some other friends upset by trying to prank one of them, when he got upset and left. I also keep making one of them angry without even realizing that I'm doing so until it's too late. Last weekend we ended a gaming session all feeling in varying degrees of bad mood because of various circumstances.

I feel like I'm losing control of life, like everything around me is slipping away. There is also some IRL drama that has my chest feeling tight recently. Somehow I must persevere.

That one prank I mentioned earlier, part of why I did it was also as a kneejerk reaction to him upsetting me. Maybe I am, in fact, an asshole.

i was not masturbating too much ever since I started hrt but honestly it feels even better and im tired of feeling ashamed about feeling lust or being somewhat perverted especially when its still super tame compared to even regular average normies so yea im gonna freely perv on men and women alike because life is too short